Journal of my life……

Ehm….has been so long never done this again…..

Last night when I was driving I heard from radio talking about ‘SOWING & REAPING", kaget juga waktu denger itu….memang sering denger ayat itu:

" ….for whatever a man sows, that he will also reap. for he who sows to his flesh will of the flesh reap corruption, but he who sows to the Spirit will of the Spirit reap everlasting life." Galatians 6: 7-8

dia bilang waktu kita menanam bibit itu….nanti akan tumbuh menjadi satu pohon yang besar dan akan keluar buahnya….jadi tidak satu biji keluar satu biji lagi…tapi akan berbuah…..dengan kata lain berkembang…..jadi kalo kita menanam kebaikan sudah tentu buah kebaikan yang juga akan keluar dari bibit kebaikan itu, tapi kalau kita menanam kejahatan ya…sudah tentu yang keluar juga pohon seperti itu….waah…luar biasa sekali…..

Even in Job 4: 8 said

" Even as I have seen, those who plow iniquity and sow trouble reap the same"

waktu saya denger gitu….give me a wisdom waah….we have to be careful with our life…..dulu saya cuman tahu sampe oke apa yang saya tabur itu akan saya tuai tapi saya ngak…sampe kepikir bahwa dari satu bibit itu akan keluar akar dan akan menjadi satu pohon dari bibit yang saya tanam itu….waah….serem amat ya…..

Saya ngebayang dari pohon yang keluar itu sudah tentu akan banyak bibit yang akan dihasilkan juga…nah….kalo bibit yang tidak baik yang saya tanam tentunya akan keluar bibit yang tidak baik lebih banyak lagi…….dan dari bibit itu akan keluar lagi…..pohon yang tidak baik….waaah…waah….bisa ngebayang…..ngak….berapa banyak kerusakan yang terjadi…..tapi begitu juga sebaliknya kalo kita menanam bibit yang baik dan sempurna seperti yang diajarkan firmanNya, kita bisa ngebayang berapa banyak kehidupan kita akan memberi dampak yang luar biasa, sudah tentu semua orang akan menikmati hasil dari bibit yang di tabur itu.

After I heard that sermon, I really pray for my life will sow the right seed and reaping the right things in me and for my surrounding, cos that seed will not only effect me personally but also will spread around me even for my family.

oke….cabut dulu nanti tulis lagi dengan cerita yang lain…..GBU

" To every things there is a season. and a time to every purpose under the heaven" Ecclesiastes 3: 1

woooow that is a great message from the word of God….

uda lama ngak..nulis blog nih…n sebenernya banyak yg mau di tulis but have no time to do it at all….today I just try to do it…

Tiap dari kita akan ada season dimana Tuhan mau kita menikmatinya and menghasilkan buah dari season itu sendiri dan saya percaya buah yang di hasilkan juga tergantung bagaimana kita merawat dan menikmatinya….

kalo kita melihat kebelakang lagi….dimana Tuhan mengizinkan melewati masa bayi…anak-anak…remaja…grown up….kuliah….kerja….menikah….punya anak…dst….dst….lucunya waktu Tuhan taruh kita pada season tertentu kita sering tidak puas….kata yang keluar " I wish…ini  I wish itu……." uda kaya "doraemon" aza….ha..ha….itu sifat manusia normal….Puji Tuhan Dia tidak tinggal diam membiarkan kita dalam menghadapi every season yang sedang kita lewati….Dia yang memberi, Dia yang memberi kekuatan buat setiap season yang sedang kita alami….

saya jadi inget waktu Jephthah lahir kita berharap kapan ya..dia mulai jalan..ngomong…gede…dsb….ternyata setelah itu semua di lewati…kita kaget sendiri….wooow…masa itu sudah lewat sekarang….malah kita jadi kaget sendiri…kalo sebentar lagi….(next school year) dia uda masuk high school…..time just flies too FAST….very FAST….and my little Becky juga bakal masuk sekolah next year…KINDERGARTEN…..woooooow….woooow….I just can’t believe it…..Time flies….

ternyata memang segala sesuatu itu ada masanya….just enjoy it semaksimal mungkin bukan berarti Season yang sedang di lewati itu tanpa ada struggle AT ALL…..ya….sudah pasti ada struggle/obstacles yang mesti kita lewati, but there is always strength from Him, Praise the Lord….always ask His wisdom and willing to learn from others for each season we are going thru….so waktu kita ada di dalam season itu….ada keindahan bukan hanya orang lain diberkati tapi kita sendiri juga…bisa menikmati season itu sendiri….saya percaya buat tiap season yang kita alami Tuhan sendiri sudah memperlengkapi kita dengan segala yang di perlukan untuk melewatinya….Dia tidak pernah lupa memperlengkapi kita sebelum kita masuk kedalam satu season…..itu kehebatan Tuhan kita…..bukan berarti saya tidak pernah gagal/jatuh….I did but sebagai orang percaya kita jatuh tapi kita bangun lagi…tidak tinggal diam di situ…sering waktu kita mengalami season itu sering kita mempertanyakan Tuhan " WHY IT HAPPEN TO ME????", "UNTIL WHEN IT’S GONNA END ???" itu normal adanya….istead of ask "why" or "When"….we should change to " what I can I do?" n "where can I start" to finish this season with His strength.

just choose to be the best for each season we are going thru….every season has the purpose….to build our characters, to be the better person.

no wonder there is the word of God " He hath made every thing beautiful in His time…." Ecclesiastes 3: 11

ya….saya berdoa kalo season yang sedang Tuhan berikan buat saya bisa menghasilkan buah yang terbaik dan maksimal.

from above two verses I’ve learned to choose to be….

- The best daughter for my parent

- The best sister for my siblings

- The best wife/companion for my husband

- The best mom for my 2 kids

- The best woman of God for Him…..

- The best friend for my friends

- The best mother in law for my kids…..

- The best grandmother for my grandsons n daughters….

the season will pass away, I have to enjoy and choose to be the best of each seasons He gave unto me….I know, the season will not come back anymore….mana mungkin saya akan mengalami masa bayi or kanak-kanak lagi…..

It’s just happen ones in lifetime…..

choose to be the BEST of each season He gave……Amen….

Hari ini baca devotion proverb31 ministry n karena bagus…spy I jangan lupa…next time jadi saya coba post it….di blog….

Devotion:
  Several years ago, my husband and I purchased a piece of land, and with God’s blessing, began to build our home. To us, it was very important to invite the Lord into this process. Not only would we raise our children there, but we wanted God to use our home to further His kingdom. It was our desire, for all who entered in, to experience the love of God.

Isn’t that what you want as well? Of course it is, but unless the Lord builds the house the work of the builder is useless.

As Christians, we are taught to regard God’s divine providence in all areas of our lives, so why not in our home, too? In all affairs - whether family, business or church - we must depend on God’s blessings instead of our means in order to obtain success. A house may be considered just a structure to some, but God says, "Unless I build it, your efforts are in vain."

Seeking to please God, my husband and I carefully picked out scripture verses, wrote them on strips of paper and placed them inside the foundation as it was being laid. We chose a special scripture that became our family’s life verse.

"Blessed is the [family] who does not walk in the counsel of the wicked or stand in the way of sinners or sit in the seat of mockers. But [their] delight is in the law of the Lord, and on his law [they] meditate day and night. [Each] is like a tree planted by streams of water, which yields its fruit in season and whose leaf does not wither. Whatever [they] do prospers." (Psalm 1:1:3)

After placing each verse into the blocks, we prayed that God’s Word would be our foundation in all we do, so that in every season of our lives we would bear fruit and prosper.

Just after we moved in, we invited family and friends over for a House Blessing. My husband and I asked a treasured friend, who had been a part of many house blessings, to lead our ceremony. After presenting us with a plate to mark this memorable occasion, she asked several guest to choose a room to pray over.

One by one they lifted prayers to heaven asking for God’s blessings on our kitchen, living room, family room, bedrooms, bathrooms, laundry room, and even the garage. Requests were made for our children to come to know the Lord as well as others. They prayed for our marriage. They prayed for protection, provision and God’s favor to fill every room. I know God was there. He always shows up where He’s invited. God’s presence was overwhelming that night and has been to this day.

Allowing God to be the master builder of our home has provided many opportunities to be a blessing and receive some too. We have welcomed many guests into our home. We’ve been protected from the storms and provided with trusted neighbors. Our home has been a safe haven to the homeless, addicted, and the abandoned. We’ve seen friends and family come to know the Lord. Throughout the years, precious memories have been created through these events and more.

Mostly, we’ve seen God’s faithfulness expressed in ways we never dreamed possible. I’ve come to realize, all of these things have been for our benefit and His glory. God was right, we couldn’t have done it better ourselves. Who’s the master builder of your home?
by Micca Cambell

Power Verses:
Here are a few we used in our House Blessing.

3 John 1:4, "I have no greater joy than to hear that my children are walking in the truth." (NIV)

Joshua 24:15, "And if it seems evil to you to serve the Lord, choose for yourselves this day whom you will serve, whether the gods which your fathers served that were on the other side of the River, or the gods of the Amorites, in whose land you dwell. But as for me and my house, we will serve the Lord." (NKJ)

John 15:16, You did not choose Me, but I chose you and appointed you that you should go and bear fruit, and that your fruit should remain, that whatever you ask the Father in My name He may give you" (NLJ)

Psalm 65:4, "Blessed is the man You choose, And cause to approach You, That he may dwell in Your courts. We shall be satisfied with the goodness of Your house, Of Your holy temple." (NKJ)

Deuteronomy 31:8, "And the Lord, He is the one who goes before you. He will be with you, He will not leave you nor forsake you; do not fear nor be dismayed." (NKJ)

Psalms 23:1-6 A Psalm of David. "The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want." (NKJ)

ya….akhirnya selesai juga….buat yang kenal Rebecca/Becky ngak…ada yang heran dgn usianya yang menurut orang da…ngak….sepantasnya memakai diaper tapi dia masih pake…..trus…saya sebagai ibu yang di rumah apa yang saya perbuat…..I been trying many things….coba sewa video kasih dia liat….trus…I read many articles and buku pinjem di library….tapi dia ngak..mau…..I try sejak dia usia 2 tahunan….waktu Jephthah gampang banget waktu dia usia 27 bulan…dia ngak..mau pake diaper katanya panas saya oke..tapi kalo mau kencing or buang air besar kasih tahu ya….and he did cuman gitu aja….selesai dalam waktu 1 minggu….tapi I did ask Dr. Budi a good friend of us….yang kebeneran dokter anak…dia saranini saya…kalo anaknya belum ready jangan di paksa nanti jadi stress buat dia juga kita sendiri….malah bisa-bisa anaknya jadi nahan kencing juga buang air besarnya malah tambah repot….nanti akan ada waktunya dia bener-bener ready….

ya…sudah saya tunggu lagi….katanya mesti kasih waktu 3 bulan then try again….and I did…tapi juga ngak..berhasil…trus…last year summer kita pulang indo…pikir ya..uda lakuin di indo…aza…khan..lantainya bukan carpet jadi lebih gampang di bersihin….tapi ternyata somehow saya juga ngak..ada waktu kerjain…malah repot banget lagi….dan melihat higienisnya di indo saya pikir aduh..mending dia pake diaper deh….lebih bersih….ya..sudah gagal lagi….trus..waktu balik masih awal August ya…saya coba lagi…..tapi juga ngak..berhasil…..trus..uda masuk fall season uda agak susah karena pagi-pagi saya uda sibuk harus anterin jephthah ke sekolah dsb….ngak..mungkin saya harus ngongkrongin becky di WC…..pernah saya coba bawa dia ke WC dan end up stay in the restroom for an hour…..Becky cuman bereaksi…" it doesn’t work" padahal keliatan kalo dia mau buang air besar karena keliatan dari expresi mukanya….setelah di pakein diaper ngak..lama dia buang air besar aduh….keselnya jangan di tanya….saya bilang " why you do that…" dia cuman bilang " I don’t know…" lately saya malah bilang aduh…becky kamu mau sampe umur berapa pake diaper…mami da..cape bersihin….it’s jorok & stink….dia ma..cuek aza….uda mana kokonya suka teasing dia sampe nangis..gitu….dia marah kalo di bilang "you are a baby….cos masih pake diaper…" kalo reaksi bapaknya it’s okay…selama masih ada size yang di pake…memang dia masih no3-4…her dad bilang jangan di paksa gitu…kasihan…anak kecil di bikin stress…orang dia belum mau ya..udah….

ya…sudah…sesuai dengan waktu yang berjalan….waktu dia berulang tahun yg ke 4 june 11 kemarin saya bilang dia..kamu uda big kid…ngak..boleh pake diaper ya…dia bilang " yes, I am a big kid with the diaper…" gawat ngak…kadang saya sampe kesel kalo saya kasih tahu dia…dia tutup kupingnya dia bilang " I don’t want to hear you mom….."   saya bilang daddy nya awas ya..dukung dia…waktu uda ngak..banyak karena next year dia masuk sekolah TK & I don’t think so kalo musim dingin gampang ngajarin dia potty train….daddy nya tanya dia…becky kalo mau "piipii & pup ke mana" dia tahu jawabnya " restroom" tuh..khan…berarti dia tahu but she is not yet ready & don’t want to do it…aza…

trus….saya sendiri juga sibuk ini itu..lagi..then finallly waktu July 31 saya saking kecapean tertidur di sofa…then Becky itu buang air besar di diaper & dia ngak.berani kasih tahu…dia takut saya marah kali….trus…waktu saya terbangun….saya kecium bau….& waktu saya tanya…dia bilang iya…trus….tiba…tiba…..setelah saya bersihin saya bilang uda…kamu uda ngak..boleh pake diaper lagi…saya juga ngak..kasih celana…..tapi saya kasih dia rok terusan..jadi ketutup…trus…saya bawa alat potty training di ruang tamu…saya bilang ngak..boleh kencingin carpet or sofa ya….kalo mau " piiipiii or pup" duduk sini….saya juga ngak..expect banyak ternyata dia did aja….malah saya lupa juga…terakhir kencing jam berapa…jadi saya ngak..tanyain dia…mau piipii ngak..dia pergi sendiri….& akhirnya dia bilang mommy give me my underwear….ya..uda saya kasih then saya bilang jangan kencingin celananya ….ya….she understand….malah alat potty training dia pindahan sendiri ke WC dia bilang shud put it in the restroom….ya..udah….waktu saya masak dia teriak…I pii….aduh…saya kaget…pikir she did it at the carpet…saya bilang di mana….dia dgn bangganya dibilang " in the restroom" waaaah…..lega….ternyata dia sudah bisa tahan & she can do it….by herself….yang saya kaget…daddynya tanya becky mana….eh…saya teriak becky where are you…dia bilang in the restroom saya bilang ngapain….dia bilang " I pup and I did clean it up " woooo…..I was surprise….tapi saya check bener-bener bersih apa ngak…I did teach her how to do it before…..trus..malamnya saya ngak.mau ambil resiko jadi saya tetep kasih dia diaper ternyata selama 4 malem dia ngak…kencingin diapernya…trus…di hari ke lima dia ngak..mau di gantiin diaper..dia bilang I don’t want to wear diaper …..and selama ini memang bener she just did aza…malah pergi saya pikir mau pakein dia diaper dia ngak..mau…dia bisa bilang kalo dia mau ke restroom….ngak..perlu saya tanya mau go party or not…..

From this I’ve learn….

- segala sesuatu ada waktunya…kalo belum ready ngapain di paksa….kitanya stress semua jadi stress….& semua jadi kacau….akhirnya kita jadi marah & ruin the whole day…

- Pas umur 4 mestinya becky check up dokter…tapi ada rasa malu juga gimana ketemu dokter…jadi saya bikin appointmentnya di tunda dulu dan kebeneran…ngak..dapet schedulenya karena penuh during summer anak sekolah check up…jadi saya dapet Aug 7 dimana dia telah selesai potty train…waktu ketemu dokternya….dia tanya da…potty train…ya…saya bilang baru minggu lalu sebenernya saya malu juga….TERNYATA dokternya cuman ketawa " it’s Okay, when she is ready just like a piece of cake" ternyata anak dia laki juga begitu…baru mau potty train umur 4 lewat…..padahal itu anak dokter…apa ngak.di ajar…iya…khan…waaah…saya lega…deh…..ternyata bukan saya aja….

- Mencoba boleh tapi jangan maksa…karena keberadaan tiap-tiap anak berbeda….hati-hati dengan ambisi kita….jangan gara-gara ambisi kita anak kita jadi celaka…

- Tuhan menciptakan setiap kita dengan keunikkannya tersendiri….dan kita ngak…bisa membandingkan anak kita dengan siapapun….karena setiap anak diciptakan istimewa adanya…dengan kekurangan dan kelebihannya….tersendiri…..

- Tuhan itu LUAR BIASA….Dia tidak pernah terlambat & Dia tidak pernah lalai…..tadinya saya uda takut juga…karena sudah memasuki bulan Aug….saya sempet nervous….kapan Becky mau belajar….ternyata she did it in the couples days….boleh dibilang lebih gampang dari Jephthah…..dulu jephthah saya masih mesti anterin dan ingetin dia….kalo Becky she did it herself….

waktu saya ke wallmart….pas coba mampir mau beli underwear buat becky deket section  diaper….saya coba liatin bungkusan diaper itu…I felt ada yang missing…gitu…sedih juga…aneh khan…uda ngak..pake bingung masih pake juga…bingung…itulah manusia ngak..pernah puas….trus..saya liat ada ibu lagi coba ambil beberapa bungkus diaper…trus…saya ke ingat I did have some coupons…trus…I handed to her….waktu saya handed I said, " I think you need these….I just done with it…last couple days…." ada rasa kebanggaan,  jadi mikir uda selesai nih….di rumah masih ada beberapa coupons diaper saya handed to Fenny….

Tuhan itu memang LUAR BIASA….Dia tidak pernah terlambat & Dia tidak pernah lalai…..

Thank you Lord for the lesson…..learn to be patient and be known that our life is under His control…..in EVERY SINGLE THINGS….BIG OR SMALL …..AMEN !!!!

Ehm….mau mulai dari mana ya….satu tahun sudah saya balik dr Indo….& satu hal yang bisa saya katakhan…"Time flies so Fast"….sampe kadang kita ngak…sempet berbuat apa-apa….tapi firman Tuhan mengingatkan…saya untuk menghitung berkat-berkat yang Tuhan buat dalam hidup ….supaya kita lebih bisa mengucap syukur lebih lagi….

saya…mengucap syukur dengan apa yang Tuhan buat & sedang buat dalam kehidupan keluarga saya…..

1. waktu bulan Feb’06 adik saya mengirim SMS memberitahu kalo papa saya sakit….& saya coba telp…dia blng cuman flue biasa..ya..uda…ternyata…kog….adikku bilang semakin parah…& saya coba telp lagi…dan kali ini dia ngak..bisa ngomong…& dia ngak..mau ngomong karena ngak..kuat…..waaah…saya shock….banget….& my sister told me to pray over him aza…melalui telp….& I did…..& setelah tutup telp my sister SMS lagi…& telling me kalo my dad di bawa ke rumah sakit…..tadinya dia ngak…mau ke dokter tapi ternyata dia sendiri uda ngak tahan & minta ke dokter….& puji Tuhan waktu adikku bawa dia ke dokter dia uda hampir collape…& Puji Tuhan biasanya dokternya dateng jam 5 sore dan hari itu dia dateng jam 4 sore pas…papaku dateng & saat itu juga dokternya bikin surat suruh masuk rumah sakit segera….kata adikku telat dikit aza…uda…deh….he can’t make it for sure….tapi Tuhan punya rencana yang baik buat my dad….malem itu my sister doain dia & tanya dia mau terima Tuhan ngak…& he did it….halleluyah…..sekali lagi firman Tuhan itu benar adanya " …All things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to His purpose" Roman 8: 28…my sister uda pernah asking him before tapi dia cuman senyum-senyum aza….besoknya my sister in law jenguk my dad & bersama dengan teman-teman sepersekutuan….juga pendetanya….& they praise & pray for my dad juga…pendetanya ask my dad about the salvation….and ones again he said "YES" halleluyah…..trus…waktu my dad di doain dia nangis….that’s what my brothers & sister said…..I believe it must be the holy spirit work within him….malam itu my sister got a vision dia melihat kalo ada sinar terang dalam ruangan rumah sakit where my dad lay down….dia seperti merasakan kalo my dad kaya lagi di operasi…..HALLELUYAH……Dialah tabib yang ajaib….ternyata papaku ada asma & karena usia lansia juga….jantungnya kurang kuat bukan dia sakit jantung…..mungkin juga karena muda dia suka merokok…

2. On May I forgot about the date…..waktu saya uda mau pergi tidur….about (9 or 9:30PM) my son jephthah come to our room and said " I think it’s about time for me to be baptized !!!!" woow saya sampe kaget, seneng, semua bercampur jadi satu….then his dad tell him to read roman 6….then I told him that he make very best decision in life….I did tell him dalam hidup ini ada 2 keputusan yang harus di ambil dengan hati-hati…& smart….

Pertama - kepada siapa kita akan mengabdi…..maksudnya cuman ada 2 pilihan ikut Tuhan Jesus atau ikut dunia kita ngak..bisa stay didaerah "grey" yang keliatannya safe yang sebenernya we can’t stay in grey area…have to make a decision or choice…

Dua - pasangan hidup kita…..make sure that’s the right one from Him….ngak…perlu ragu apa Tuhan bisa memberikan yang terbaik or not…selama kita setia dengan Dia percaya kalo He will lead our path….for sure…as Prov 3: 5 said " Trust in the Lord with ALL your hearth and HE WILL DIRECT your PATH"…..

so Jephthah di baptis June 11 tepat hari ulang tahun Becky yang ke empat biar gampang ingetnya juga…tepat hari minggu….Tuhan melawat my own family…..ya…saya berdoa biar Jephthah selalu ingat akan kebaikanNya dalam hidup dia…dan be faithfull in HIm….

3. On Monday Aug 14 I got SMS from my sister remind me to call home cos my dad’s birthday on Tuesday…bukannya saya ngak..bisa inget my dad’s birthday but since my dad still using the chinese calendar so the date bisa berubah- rubah tiap tahun…jadi saya mesti tunggu info dari indo….gitu….trus…waktu saya telp…di rumah rame….saking ramenya…akhirnya saya cuman ngomong sebentar with my dad….jadi saya ngomong sama my sister in law….dan dari dia I got shocking news…..and make me speechless…..

a. my sister in law bilang tadi ada persekutuan buat merayakan ultah my dad….& pendetanya speak chinese….(have to thanks to president Gus Dur yang memperbolehkan bahasa chinese di pake di indo lagi….) & so all my aunties & relatives can understand better…..I never think kalo akan pernah terjadi persekutuan at my home…..I was really shock….and I ask how is everybody reaction….she said they listen & follow to sing juga….malah my sister in law yang balik tanya " memangnya saya ngak..tahu kalo my dad uda terima Tuhan" dia bilang iya…pendetanya dateng seminggu sekali untuk melayani my dad untuk mengerti firman Tuhan…..ya..kaya bible study gitu….wooow that’s big….trus…I told her how is my mom’s reaction karena dia agak keras ya….my sister in law bilang ya…pertama dia minta izin dulu boleh ngak….& my mom said yes…..wooow….Tuhan kita memang LUAR BIASA…….saya bener-bener ngak..ngebayang kalo Tuhan akan bekerja segitu jauhnya…..sekali lagi…firmanNya di genapi " ….Apa yang tidak pernah di lihat oleh mata, dan tidak pernah didengar oleh telinga, dan yang tidak pernah TIMBUL di dalam hati manusia; SEMUA yang di sediakan ALLAH untuk mereka yang mengasihi Dia" I kor 2: 9….Amen…Amen…..

b. My sister in law juga cerita tahu ngak…Tuhan juga sudah merubah my brother dia bilang tempo hari my brother sakit levernya kambuh & dia uda ngak..tahan lagi sampe dia panggil ke empat anaknya….tapi Tuhan buat yang lain….my sister in law ajak mereka berdoa….& He healed my brother…trus…my sister in law bilang sekarang my brother berubah banyak….tadinya yang gampang marah udah ngak….trus…saya balik bertanya sekarang ke gereja mana…..dia bilang ke gereja GBI woow…..luar biasa….( I Know it’s not easy for my sister in law to change or move….as she is very strong catolic before, but because of the Power of His Word ) dan juga dia mention koko saya sampe bisa mau ikut seminar pria sejati segala…..wooow……Tuhan yang kita sembah memang LUAR BIASA…….

I have been praying for my family since I really born again back in 1984 even kadang saya juga doubt it… & juga lupa berdoa buat mereka tapi dari sini I’ve learn….

- Our God is faithfull God…no matter how…. He keep His promise…walaupun uda 22 tahun Tuhan ingat setiap janji buat anak-anakNYa…

- lebih setia lagi…..didalam Dia, juga ingat akan setiap berkat-berkat Tuhan dalam hidup kita…bahwa bekerja di ladang Dia tidak akan pernah sia-sia….DIA akan mencukupi kehidupan kita sekali lagi firmanNya mengatakan…. "Delight yourself in the Lord, and He will give you the desire of your heart"

- Keselamatan yang Tuhan berikan itu adalah anugrah yg TERBESAR & mendoakan keselamatan itu buat family, relative, friends adalah hal yang mutlak kita ngak..perlu tanya apakah itu sesuai kehendak Tuhan atau tidak….dan saya percaya keselamatan buat my mom & my big brother now in process & sudah dekat juga….AMEN…

- Kuasa doa seorang istri/ibu besar kuasanya…..buktinya my sister in law waktu dia mulai belajar setia dalam firman Tuhan & melakukannya didalam kehidupan dia….bahkan dia sering sekali mulai memberikan dirinya dalam doa puasa….He start opens the heavenly gate……for her family….God restore her husband ( I mean my brother) and her kids….juga…AMAZING….

- Tuhan memberikan berkat tepat pada waktunya…Dia tidak pernah terlambat or terlalu cepat……karena rencana Dia bukan rencana Kita….& rancangan kita dengan Dia seperti langit dan bumi adanya….kenapa saya bisa berkata demikian…..saya pikir balik….kalo sejak saya terima Tuhan….& ngak….lama mereka semua terima Tuhan…mungkin saya akan menjadi orang yang TERsombong….tapi dari kejadian ini saya bisa melihat bahwa semuanya ini hanya "KEMURAHAN TUHAN" & saya ngak…ada andil apa-apa…I can’t take any credit on it….NONE…..

and yang terakhir sebelum saya tutup telp dengan my sister in law bilang " Iya doain terus….sekarang Tuhan sedang menata rumah kita biar in order….satu-satu di taruh pada tempatnya…." waktu dia bilang begitu….saya ngebayangin how beautiful it’s when God start to put things in order by His hands and Mighty Power……saya percaya ngak…akan ada kesalahan when He start manage…line per line dengan sempurna adanya……because He is the perfect God….and a loving God…..and AMAZING God. Dia yang mencipta langit & bumi ini tanpa ada satu kesalahan…..bisa ngebayang kalo Dia taruh planet ini sembarangan….

setelah tutup telp….tahu apa yang saya perbuat…..I cried….and cried…..ya…seneng….terharu….all blend into one…I just can’t thank Him enough….for what He has done in my life……trus…saya coba pergi driving by myself (karena becky saya ajak ngak..mau jadi dia stay home with jephthah) I just want to be alone with HIM, sambil nyalain radio channel christian…kenceng-kenceng….& saya mengucap syukur…..that day I really soak into ‘TEAR OF JOY".

For the Lord is good and His MERCY endure FOREVER……AND EVER…..

Since last 3 days….I got flue….I can’t do anything bukannya ngak..mau tapi ngak..bisa….ngak…kuat….ini seluruh badan lemes banget….kepala pusing sekali….sampe merasa bersalah sama 2 anak gue..ditelantaranin…gitu….buat becky ya…gw masih berusaha siapin makan buat dia seadanya….yg sebenernya dia juga batuk pilek….ya…uda…terserah seberapa yg dia bisa makan…deh…tapi namanya naruli seorang ibu….ngak.tega juga….ya..berusaha suapin dia….biar dia makan….kalo jephthah ya….gampang..since saya uda ajarin how make super"mie" ya…dia bisa bikin deh…..or dia bisa bikin sandwich or hotpocket…at least buat lunch dia…sorenya tunggu daddynya pulang beliin mrk makanan…

anehnya lagi sejak hari senin device telp vonage bisa rusak….lagi….akhirnya dgn kepala pusing harus telepon mrk jelasin ke mrk….yg lebih kacau kayanya semua customer services di vonage org india kali…aduh…bhs englishnya tambah bikin kepala pusing…akhirnya uda males terangin dia….lagi….saya bilang " I am sorry, I don’t want to explain more to you, I got more headache by talking with you" bener sih…akhirnya I hang up the phone deh…drpd saya yg tambah blow out…..the next day wkt saya rada oke…saya coba telp n let them know kalo powernya itu dead….ngak..bisa di apa-apain…baru deh…mrk blng oke…krm yg baru….saya blng since yesterday I did explain kalo powernya dead masa gw di suruh matiin..tunggu sebentar n nyalain lagi….gw blng apanya yg mau di matiin n nyalain…org powernya ngak..ada….susah memang yg namanya "break communication" tapi hebat sih….si india itu….persisten banget terangin gw please kindly turn on the power n so on….aduh….nih..org…..gw nya tambah panas …dia masih Please kindly follow my instruction…..dalam hati gw elue ngerti ngak…sih….ngak ada power……

ceritanya saya bisa kena flue….I think…

since last week saya sibuk banget membersihkan rumah dr yg namanya di luar (beresin garden, trimming, dsb) sampe dalem karena keluarga koko kim liong bakal dateng……mrk dateng midnight thursday june 22……ternyata june 21 Tuhan kirim tamu tak terduga dr New York….orang tua budi & anita…..I am glad to met them….juga…jadi berkat buat saya pribadi….

ceritanya ortu budi n anita mau ke luisiana ketempat wedding budi….n pesawat mrk transit di chicago ternyata mrk miss the flight sehingga mrk hrs catch the next day punya pesawat ya…..uda…I picked them up…..n have fellowship with them….n malemnya kita ngobrol n they pray for us…juga….thanks….for such a blessing….I believe it’s devine oppointment from God…and thursday morning mereka balik sekalian kim liong ke kantor anterin mereka ke airport dulu.

trus….keluarga koko kim liong ternyata pesawatnya sedikit di delay…ya….jadinya mrk sampe di chicago midway itu jam 02 AM jumat….kim liong n jephthah yg jemput sih….tapi sama aja…di rumah jg nungguin…sampe ketiduran…akhirnya mrk sampe di rumah jam 03 AM….kim liong banguin at least say "hi to them"….then balik tidur….

ya…dr friday s/d sunday kita jadi tour guide di down town….yg..saya kira udaranya…oke…. ternyata "tidak" memang jangan main-main dgn julukan "windy city" bener-bener windy….apalagi kalo dr pagi sampe jam 11 malem …bener-bener jd masuk angin…ha..ha…memang bingungin orang…paginya 70 an…uda pake celana 3/4 n kaos 3/4 juga..pikir uda cukuplah….eh…ternyata "TIDAK"……

sejak keluarga koko kim liong pulang senin pagi jam 4 pagi….krn mrk perlu catch pesawat jam 7….seperti biasa saya selalu membersihkan rumah lagi….ngepel lah….vacum bersihin wc ganti sprey….n sebagainya…tapi karena hari seninnya saya roboh maksudnya sakit…ya…sudah…I have to "Let it Go" yang sebenernya saya ngak..bisa…perasaannya…aduh…kotor banget…..tambah stress sendiri deh…

ya…dr kejadian ini…I’ve learn…

- it’s oke…."Let it Go"….walaupun susah ya…..liat rumah berantakan….kayanya dust around the house…yg mestinya it’s oke juga….sometime for a while.

- I felt bad ngak..bisa prepare proper lunch n dinner for my family…..apalagi kim liong lagi sibuk di kantor ada tamu n dia balik dr kantor mesti bawa anak-anak pergi makan dinner….yang mestinya dia bisa makan di rumah n istirahat…how God alrdy install the instinc to be the mother ones you are called, jadi dgn kata lain sebenernya kita perlu cultivate motherhood yang sudah Tuhan taruh dlm diri kita sebagai ibu…bukannya ngak…just need a little practice…..saya percaya ngak…ada orang pas jadi ibu langsung bisa jadi super mom….ha..ha…it takes time….n learning….I remember back when I was single I don’t like around kids….saya suka mikir ini anak-anak berisik amat sih….ngerepotin…tapi sekarang God helps me to see with the different eyes ha..ha….I can see the beauty of it…..amazing….

- I felt blessed to have Kim liong, dia yg lagi sibuk banget di kantor krn kedatangan tamu gitu…dia masih sempet telp ke rumah when he went to restroom tanyain "how you r doing???" nanti mau di beliin makanan apa….segala…I told him pulang cepetan aja..bawa anak-anak makan….

- I enjoy n be blessed to have fun with Kim liong’s brother…yang tadinya saya juga sempet mikir "how" krn setahu saya keluarga ini termasuk org yg "quite n very neat" waaah…saya takut once they are here they can’t enjoy it….ternyata tidak seseram spt apa yg saya bayangkan….namanya juga lain ladang lain belalang ya….khan..tiap orang running keluarga ada tips- tips sendiri ya….unik gitu maksudnya…memang selama saya tahu mereka, kita ngak..pernah sih…interact sedemikian deket ya…maksudnya heboh gitu….krn memang mrk termasuk org yang quite sih….apalagi satu rumah walaupun cuman beberapa hari….n saya sempet bawa mrk liat rumah contoh di sekitar area….n they seems very interested…malah suggest anak-anaknya kalo bisa pindah ke sini…"HA"…biar deket dgn kita….kayanya mrk mau beli rumah deket kita deh….kita liat cerita selanjutnya…..kalo mrk berhasil beli rumah di sini berarti saya punya bakat jadi broker rumah kali ya…ha..ha….

- just cherish n enjoy every moment…..CAUSE …..

"There is a time for everything,
and a season for every activity under heaven:

a time to be born and a time to die,
a time to plant and a time to uproot,
a time to kill and a time to heal,
a time to tear down and a time to build,
a time to weep and a time to laugh,
a time to mourn and a time to dance,
a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
a time to embrace and a time to refrain,
a time to search and a time to give up,
a time to keep and a time to throw away,
a time to tear and a time to mend,
a time to be silent and a time to speak,
a time to love and a time to hate,
a time for war and a time for peace.

… He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has set eternity in the hearts of men; yet they cannot fathom what God has done from beginning to end." ~ Ecclesiastes 3:1-8, 11

n terakhir…hari ini saya bisa bersihin rumah n bisa prepare lunch n dinner for my lovely family lagi n uda bisa menikmati super "bihun" lagi….tanpa menambah xtra garem ternyata enak…ya…padahal last 2 days saya makan uda di tambah Xtra garem n air uda malah di kurangin masih berasa "tasteless"……kacau ngak…..don’t try this when you are not sick…I bet it taste "Awful"…ha…ha….

oh….ya…hari ini juga saya dpt krman device buat vonage lagi..aneh ya…bisa pas gitu….so everything mulai back to normal gradually.

oke…sekian saja…..cerita hari ini….besok cerita yg lain ya….uda malem, masih banyak berkat yg Tuhan buat dalam hidup saya yang belum sempet saya tulis nih….."how He answer my prayers….."

Devotion:
  I did well on my diet today. I only had three pieces of chocolate cake. That’s okay isn’t it? The diet book said that I shouldn’t deprive myself. If I want chocolate cake I should eat it to prevent me from binging later on. While skeptical, I found this information enlightening. Sweets, I always assumed, were evil and the reason behind my bulge. Now I discover it can’t be the cake, so it must be the vegetables!

I haven’t quite figured it all out yet. I’ve tried every diet known to woman, and not a one works for me. Do you think you have to stay on them longer than a week or two to get results? I’m not capable of that. Then there is the whole idea of not dieting but changing your eating habits for life. How cruel! The thought of no more , ery popcorn with extra salt is more than I can take. Let’s face it: eating is the only legal enjoyment we have as Christians! Okay, that’s not true. It just seems to me that "meet and eat" is practically church doctrine.

On the other hand, there are those who are obsessed with diet and exercise. The goal of some women appears to be to get back to their newborn weight of 8 pounds and 7ounces. While staying physically fit is important, it can be taken to the extreme. Finding a healthy balance between the two are key. Let’s make a pact. I’ll pray for you if you’ll pray for me to find that balance.

With all of the pressure on outward appearances, I wonder if we’ve forgotten how important it is to stay in shape spiritually too.

Let’s take a spiritual walk together and learn how to really get into S.H.A.P.E.

Step One: Begin your exercise with Surrender. You may be thinking, "Isn’t that what I did when I first came to Christ-surrender?" Yes, you did. However, to stay spiritually fit, you and I must learn that surrender is not a one-time action. We must learn to live it out everyday by learning to say "no" to self and "yes" to God, in complete obedience to whatever He asks of us.

Step Two: Apply Holiness to our daily routines. For me, pumping up my holiness muscle is the hardest part of the routine. When I’m all by myself, I can be as holy as the day is long. Once the kids come home from school, my horns pop out, knocking my halo to the ground. This discourages me. The good news is that God never intended for us to be holy on our own. Apart from Christ, we can’t achieve this attribute. It’s only when we yield to the life of Christ in us that His holiness can be lived out through us. The more we exercise dependence on Him, the holier we will become.

Step Three: Train yourself to Abide. Abiding means to remain in Christ; to stay connected to Him throughout the day. When you and I cut ourselves off from Christ, we become powerless to avoid temptations and sin. It’s only when the branch stays connected to the vine that the sap, the life-giving substance, flows freely through the tree. Likewise, when we abide in Christ, we no longer have to struggle to live for Him; He is free to live His life through us. Read the Bible to learn how to abide in Him. There you will find guidelines for successful daily living.

Step Four: Practice Prayer. As you learn to stay connected to God through studying His Word, prayer becomes a path to intimacy. As God speaks, you may be led to confess sin or respond in praise and worship as you learn who God is and what He desires of you. During this time of communion with the Living God, you’ll find that prayer eases your worries and sooths your anxieties. It diminishes doubt and replenishes your soul. Prayer is a vital step to your spiritual shape.

Step Five: Never lose your Enthusiasm. There are times that I struggle with apathy. I want to stay spiritually fit, but sometimes I’m not motivated to put forth the energy. Over the years, I’ve discovered that in order to stay excited, I have to nurture my relationship with my heavenly Father. Telling Him everyday how much you love and need Him will keep your heart close to His. Meditating on how much He loves and cares for you will keep your soul on fire and your passion alive. Then, you’ll be eager to keep in S.H.A.P.E. because with each step you become more like Him.

Today I got the very good devotion message, which I think it’ll be good if I post it here, so i can keep it as my journal & who knows can bless many of you out there, too.

oke….enjoy the reading….

Key Verse:
1 John 2:17, "This world is fading away, along with everything it craves. But if you do the will of God, you will live forever." (NLT)

Devotion:
  I almost dyed my hair red today. I just needed a change. It all started the other day when I was driving with my nine-year-old son in the car. He reached over and took hold of my hand. I looked at him lovingly and thought to myself, "What a sweet child." Until he spoke. "Oh my gosh, Mom! Look at the wrinkles in your hand compared to mine. Don’t you think my hand looks much younger than yours?" Kids never know when to lie.

The truth is, I do have a few wrinkles, as well as extra baggage in the lower level that I wish someone would claim. It can’t all be mine!

The years have a way of sneaking up on us, just as a lion sneaks up on his prey. It is a cruel reality. A naive little antelope is minding her own business having an afternoon snack or cooling her hot, tired hoofs in the water when "POUNCE" it’s all over. Life has come and gone for the antelope. What was the meaning of her life? What did she leave behind that made the world a better place for her furry friends? If she knew her life would end so quickly, would she have lived any differently?

Similarly, the years "pounce" on us, sapping our energy and passion until there’s no more life left in us. It happens all too quickly. Whoever said that "time stands still" is not a member of this universe. Time on earth is but a vapor. The older we get the more we realize this reality. Sobered by this truth, I ask myself: "What have I done with my life? How will my family and friends remember me? Has my life been a reflection of God’s glory, or have I wasted it?"

No matter how old or tired we are, it is never too late to start living life with meaning. Today really could be the first day of the rest of your life. I know, I know, contributing in the world can really cut into your "me" time. What if you were meant to part a sea, conquer a country, become a missionary, heal the bind or turn water into wine? It could happen.

Remember Esther, the Jewish girl? She was adopted by her uncle Mordecai after the death of her parents. He instructed her to keep her nationality and family background a secret when she found favor in the eyes of King Xerxes. The king loved Esther and made her his queen. Wait a minute. Persian kings do not make Jewish girls their queen unless God is in control. Could it be that God had a plan for Esther’s life?

Just when all seemed to be going well, Mordecai overheard a plot to kill the Jews. Although he was grieved for his people, God gave him the eyes to see that Esther was in a position to change the king’s actions. She had a decision to make. Would Esther stand up and fight to save her people, or keep quiet?

Mordecai convinced Esther that God placed her in the position of queen to save her people. "What’s more, who can say but that you have been elevated to the palace for just such a time as this?" (Esther 4:14b, NLT) However, this was risky business. Since Esther was also a Jew, her life was also in danger. Despite the risk, Esther chose to live her life beyond herself. As a result, she saved her people, the Jews. I told you it could happen.

Why has God placed you where you are? Are you in an ungodly place of work? Perhaps you’re in a bad relationship with a spouse or friend. Maybe you’re living beside unbelieving neighbors? Why has God placed you there for such a time as this? I believe that you were born in this generation, to live in your city, work at your job, and be the parent of your children so that you could know God and make a difference in your world. (Acts 17:26-27, my paraphrase)

Like Esther, you have a decision to make. Will you fulfill your life’s purpose or not. While there may be risks involved, think of the difference you could make in someone’s life or a whole community! You may be the one God uses to begin a godly legacy within your family for generations to come. Perhaps you’re the one who will be remembered for bringing values back into the family, into our government or into our school system. The possibilities are endless if you’ll start living today the way God intended.

When my life is over, I want others to remember how my family loved one another and how we served our King no matter how tired, busy or old we got. A life is a terrible thing to waste. Live it to the fullest. Whether your hand is beginning to wrinkle or not, use it to make a difference today.

Application Steps:
Open your eyes and look around. Begin praying about how God wants to use you. Ask yourself, "Why am I in this position or place? How can I make a difference here?" Journal the answers and then follow His instructions in obedience. Be prepared to be used in a mighty way!

Mother day is on the way….for those of you who are not a mother yet….just take time to read and you’ll leard appreciate your mother more, for those of you who are soon to be a mother and to all mothers out there….enjoy this article…..which I got it from someone…

Before I was a mom - I had never been puked on, pooped on, spit on, chewed on or peed on. I had complete control of my mind and my thoughts. I slept all night.

Before I was a mom - I never held down a screaming child so doctors could do tests or give shots. I never looked into teary eyes and cried. I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin. I never sat up late hours at night watching a baby sleep.

Before I was a mom - I never held a sleeping baby just because I didn’t want to put it down. I never felt my heart break into a million pieces when I couldn’t stop the hurt. I never knew that something so small could affect my life so much. I never knew that I could love someone so much. I never knew I would love being a mom.

Before I was a mom - I didn’t know the feeling of having my heart outside my body. I didn’t know how special it could feel to feed a hungry baby. I didn’t know that bond between a mother and her child. I didn’t know that something so small could make me feel so important and happy.

Before I was a mom - I had never gotten up in the middle of the night every 10 minutes to make sure all was okay. I had never known the warmth, the joy, the love, the heatache, the wonderment or the satisfaction of being a mom. I didn’t know I was capable to feeling so much before I was a mom.